Well, I am having the stage 2 part of surgery tomorrow. The flap they did is called a 2-stage nasolabial flap. Tomorrow, they will remove the pedicle and recontour down the skin. Basically, they will put everything back where it belongs. I watched a YouTube video of tomorrow’s surgery and well, let’s just say that I wasn’t expecting all that. It is what it is. I am expecting that the scar from my stitches down my face is going to be reopened, then closed with new stitches. More healing, but without that pesky weird flap.
The thing I am honestly most excited about is getting over the whole regiment of cleaning, gunking, and re-bandaging my nose. It’s getting old. Additionally, I am looking forward to letting my nose get some air finally. I wear a bandage each day at work and it’s gross when I change it…. four times a day.
After all this, I am grateful and blessed. First, I am cancer free. Second, I have such a big cheerleading team in you all. I am very self-conscious by nature, so this has been a test for me. I bought myself a beautiful Kate Spade silver bangle bracelet. On the inside, it says “Find the Silver Lining”. Truer words have not been spoken. Every time I look at it, I will count my blessings.
Well, I will update tomorrow after surgery. Looking forward to getting it over with. BTW, if you ever find yourself in this position, a Xanax 45 min before surgery does wonders for your bravery. Seriously, I hopped up on that table last time and said: “Let’s rock!” I had been scared shitless prior to that. This time, I will do the same thing, but I do feel somewhat calmer because I know what to expect now.
Yeah right…. ask me that on the ride down. 😉